I kept wondering why I wasn't enjoying school this semester. I kept asking myself why I was ditching class, procrastinating on my essays (AND MY STORIES!). Alas, I realized what the problem was. I didn't want to major in communications management. So I decided to drop that major. Once I did, I felt this huge wave of relief. I'm still majoring in what I really love, writing. I should be getting my master's degree in professional writing by Fall '06. Or it should at least be mostly done.
Why did I major in communications management in the first place? Fear. I fear failure. Honestly, what are the chances of me becoming a successful (meaning money-making) writer? Slim, right? That's what I thought. So I said, hm, I can probably get a good job in communications if I earned my MA in it. It was to be backup.
But why work so hard in something I didn't really want to do? So I thought and prayed and thought some more. "I need to drop this major." And I did. I informed them Monday morning that I won't be returning next semester.
If I fail at being a writer, I fail. But I won't EVER be happy working in the communications field, unless I'm a writer. So that's it. That's my story. Peace.
Hello world!
1 year ago
1 comment:
Everyone fears failure! Its what you do with that fear that makes you a better person. And, you can't be a failure unless you decide to give up on your goal.
Love,
Your wiser, older and much more attractive sister who does not suffer from any of those mental issues you think you have.
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