Wow... it's a nice day

It's kind of cool what a good weekend, good coffee, good music, good weather, a good night's sleep and Batman can do for you. Well, let me tell you what it did for me. I had a "drama free" weekend. I slept well Saturday night to Sunday and Sunday night to Monday. Woke up today, listened to John Mayer on my way to work. "Why Georgia?" is the song I listened to twice:

"I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
Wood in places to make it feel like home
But all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
Or just the stirring in my soul

Either way I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life"

Well, I guess I realized that all the drama I've been facing is sort of my own doing. I'm stressed out in school because I've been procrastinating with the things that need to get done. I'm stressed out at home because I haven't really made the effort to find a place. I'm stressed out at work because I'm used to thinking of my job as a "career" (which makes me sad) instead of just a job. But the truth is, I'm a writer and I haven't been writing. That's what makes me happy.

The reason I haven't been writing, looking for a place to live or been procrastinating is fear. Yep, fear. With my writing, I'm scared to fail and get rejected - which I will. With school I've been procrastinating because I fear that the things I'm studying aren't that important. And with the living situation I am scared to find a place and then realize that I made a mistake by moving there...

I watched "Batman Begins" this weekend and one of the characters told Bruce Wayne, "You need to embrace your fears." It's true. I will get rejected. I will struggle, even with two master's degrees. And I probably will have bad neighbors, a crappy landlord or a small place no matter where I move to. So the moral of the story is to not fear. Be like Batman. Embrace those fears. Try, even though you might fail.